Computor

I am so happy today, I have a computor with internet in my room :D
well what have I been doing today, not much actually, but it's been good :D I cleaned at K's house and that was much apprichiated :D I am now cleaning my room, chaning bedlinen and stuff, got to do that crap to unfortunatly. But I installed the comp by myself so I am proud :D
WEll I need to finish cleaning before my energy is tapped :D
/ lisah

Tuesday

Well today I have been good, I changed the lights on my car, both of which were broken, and for those who know about the Renault car... it's a bitch, cuz you have go change them by taking the tire off, there is a hatch and then you have to stretch in to change the bulb, but I did it...the woman know's how to do it :P
There will be pics of it later on today :D
Well now I have to clean up
/ Lisah

Sunday

It's now sunday night, and I'm tired as all hell, no wonder I was up 'til 7 am and woke at 11 am, then home and do stuff, I have soo much stuff to do this week can't really list it all but I know it is.
Other than that, it's been a fun weekend, I was in Borås since Thursday and yesterday it was a party at Hurricanes MC so I partied :D alot.
But I am going home now, so I'll have to write later
If not tonight...tomorrow maybe :D
Have a great night all
// Lisah

Another sleepless night

I don't know what I'm doing, staying up this late, and then getting up so early... but hey, I guess I have one of those periods of my life when I can't sleep for different kinds of reasons. One is that I have been very angry today...and then we have the fn nightmares again. Torture is not fun when you dream about it. If I would make a movie out of my nightmares, it would scare the living daylights out of ppl...just saying, worse than SAW.
WEll today I changed 3 tires on my car, couldn't change the fourth cuz I got the wrong one from the garage, so I'll have to shift that tomorrow instead, but that's okey, I got my daily workout :D
I really should try to do some back and stomach exercises, but it is soooo boring.
K will take a pic of me changing the last tire and then make a bumpersticker saying, a real woman doesn't need a man for this shit :P
well I really should try to sleep...hard when you are still angry though...but I'll try..the witchinghour is soon upon us
// Lisah

Wow already 1.42

I really should go to bed, I am getting tired and well ya.
Other than that it has been a good day... I have been to the house and looked in on the cats, I really need to clean my room when I get back there.
But I am still staying at "moms" house so tomorrow I am changing tires on the car...how fun right;D all on my own
Well I'm going to bed...need to sleep
// Lisah

almost 1,30 am on tuesday

it's wierd... I usually take a nap during the day, to be able to be up at night, but not now, I am wide awake and have a crapload of energy, it's totally wierd...where does this energy come from??
I have no idea, so I was thinking about maybe doing som excersize, but it's a bit too late maybe.
But other than that I can always draw, wonder if I can get some inspiration, and do it with a ballpoint pen cuz I don't wanna rummage through my stuff for a pencil...
I can always re-do it later :P
Ya well, if I can't sleep I might write later
Kissies <3

Nigthtime

The time when I am most alive... I know such a nightperson huh??
But I am feeling better, have desided what I need to do :D Not saying just yet but ...I will try to draw inspiration from the web and such :D
Other than that..hmmm... what is it about men and being cowards?? I mean I am a girl that has a hard time expressing problems and stuff but other than that I can apparently go on for hours :D I think it might be a good thing, but I do know when to shut up and listen.
What I have noticed now that I have lost all the weight, is that most ppl and guys in general have a tendency of viewing me as brainless...I wonder why that is, since I have very sound thoughts and ideas, and I study personal development and psychology...But it's probably like a wise woman said...most men follow the thing that has the most blood, you guys that read this can take it however you'd like.

I have had a few songs stuck on my brain, but I keep listening to them to get rid of them :D I wonder where they are coming from?!

And I have found a "rolemodel" and for some reason it's Jessica Rabbit, true she is a cartoon but she has such poise and confidence :D

Monday and I have issues

Oh well I know I shouldn't complain, others have it far worse than I do... but I am having some issues with how I look and feel etc.
Today I feel ugly as hell, don't know why, it just came randomly and it's messing with my head. I know it's just headghosts but still...how do you turn off a feeling?
Well me and my roomies had a LONG discussion yesterday and I think it went pretty well, I just have to make sure that they don't ever take me for granted ever again. I know I can be too nice and well ya.
I found some old pictures of me from the 7th of November of last year.. just wow, what a difference, I will post them here.
But back to the strange feelings, yesterday it was fine, and it's been fine for about a week, with ups and downs ofc...
But since I lost 46 kg I keep doubting myself that I look good, just because I don't know why..and plus I still have the fat girl mentality..which sucks royally, but that is something that happens I guess.
I'll write later...
// Lisah

Friday 2AM

Just realized that I should go to bed, but I'm not tired and that sucks, but I am getting up early tomorrow and going to my dad. After that I am going to Borås to pick up pellets and a friend... and then I will be going into Vårgårda 2 times more I think...but I'm not certain yet.
We are having a Themeparty in the house again... this time it's pyjamaparty :P
And for those who knows our parties, everyone will be in their underwear by the end of the night...well depending on temperature :)
I hope there will be picture, now that would be fun :D
So I'll be totally gone from the computor all weekend I think, but I don't know yet. It all depends on different things.
Hopefully I'll get my laptop back soon, since it got fried again I really don't know.
But I belive that I will get it, sooner or later :D
I have really gotten into the whole thing with The secret again, trying to release my fears now so I will allow things into my life, I definatly deserve it.
Other than that, not much is going on this weekend that I know of...but that can change, I know that :D
I have to go to bed now, sleep well all :)

Thursday evening

Hehe, alot of blogs now on thursday :D
WEll I have been into Alingsås today, just driving my friend to his thing..and then sitting in the car, resting... I have realized that I need some kind of support for my back when I am sitting infront of the computor cuz this is rediculous, getting this much pain from that...
Oh well I guess I wil have to work out and get a "muscle corset" as it is called...it's a bitch getting smaller some times, but in general except for the backthing, I am feeling pretty good.
Well I am going to work out now, and then a bath, maybe some icecream with chocolate syrup...YUUUM!!!
Later...

Thursday..

Hmmm I'm probably gonna write more during the day, it's now 9,06 and I woke up about an hour ago...sucks but I need to have that habit.
I am going to work out now, drink som coffee and wait for that phonemeeting I have in 20 min...
write later...
/ Lisah

thursday morning

It's now 1,30 am and I'm still awake, I really shouldn't be cuz I have been up for about 20 hours now.. oh well shit happens and I'm getting used to it... have my periods of insomnia. Well what have I been doing today, welll I was out driving, I was getting my computor (laptop) but it got fried again...unfortunatly, don't really know why but it can have something to do with the fact that lightening struck it a few months ago...and the facts that the cats threw it onto the floor.
Other than that I have been cleaning the kitchen and thinking alot about my current situation, nothing I'm going to get into here but still.
I am worried about my oldest cat, he has been loosing rank in the pack, the others have started to regect him and that's never a good sign.
I have also been working out a bit... need to get into that again... it's boring but worth while when I get started...I know this but it's still boring as all hell, since I don't go to a gym.
And then we have this weekend... going to my dads on friday, and then theres a party at the house...hungover saturday and relaxing on sunday... well we'll see how it goes.
Trying to find some good movies for next friday too...so everything is piling up unfortunatly.
well well, I really should try to sleep for a while, I probably need it.
Have fun all

Tuesday :D

Today it's tuesday and we have basically nothing planned, so I think I will be cleaning or something, I also have some ideas of what to draw, but I need to make my space so...
I really want to get into the whole tattoostate again, it's soo much fun.
I wonder if I should try to work out today to, and ofc there will be a bath as a reward :D
I love the bathtub, can anyone tell?
Right now I have pains in my muscles since I carried stuff yesterday, but that's okey, I feel like I've worked out, so now I just need to get over it.
I thought that I should go to the Rec-center to go to the solarium :D maybe walk there, it's not that far, but it is cold.
Other than that...I'll figure it out. I really wanna watch Paranormal Activity today, I've heard it's good.
Well got to go now..but I'll try to write later

At "moms"

Just got here, and we have eaten, sausage with macaroni... very simple but satisfying :D
Other than that, I have my stuff with me, going home for a while tomorrow just to get some more stuff, I have pants that needs to be taken in and some other stuff that need to get washed, and maybe changed. I need to keep my style up :D
I also brought my pad and pens with me so I can draw, I have a few tattoo's on backlog at the moment so I need to start sketching them up
But here I will have my own computor so I only need a mouse and headphones and that's it.
I will also take more pictures tomorrow or later on this week cause I need them...so it might be good if I take the cord with me...
WEll I have to get up early tomorrow to go to town... so night night all
XOXO
Lisah

going to bed soon

The downside of changing u'r daily rythm is that u sleep later, so I have to change it back now, going to bed soon and it's 1,20 in the morning, getting up at about 8,30 just so I know that I will get up at 7 on monday... I have my shrink appointment on monday... it's good to talk I guess but...ya. but I also know that when I get a job that starts early I will be able to get up and that is always nice.
I am still thinking about if I should start studying psychology at a school instead, I am reading soo much about personal development at the moment so it probably would be good.. I want to learn.
Well going to bed now, writing more tomorrow