GAAH

Lot's of things going on today, at least the livingroom is somewhat finished, just some cleaning left. And then it's cleaning my room...again. Don't know how but it will work it self out.
My roommate is feeling alone since I have stopped talking to him about problems, just not to burden him. He just can't handle my problems and he has told me that on several occations. I just don't know what to do. He has his BF and eventhough he is my best friend, it's not like he talks to me either. I just don't know what to do.
A part of me wants to just crawl under a rock and disappear, but that is not an option.
I know I have changed from the "source of everything good in this world" but ...ppl change and I didn't show him how I felt when he met me. It's so different to live with eachother and to just see eachother a couple of hours a day...much easier to put a mask on.
I will however start to paint again... since I am only borrowing a comp at the moment.... and then it's the fact that I am cleaning constantly... need to, have many cats. I guess I've achieved my former goal as being the "Crazy Cat Lady" heheh
Now I have to get a new goal with my life... it mightbe to get my life in order, get a job...maybe a relationship... study the way I do about Quantum Physics and find my power.

A movie tip about LoA is "The Secret"
And trust me, this stuff works

/ Lisah